what should i talk about?

so here i am, the last time i've updated my blog was somewhere in november 2007. much happened, much learned. t'was very interesting though, waiting for time to come 9.30 so that i can hop into the bus and head back to kuantan and suddenly feel like typing something down while listening to lately by stevie wonder. love this song. all thanks to kak susan.

so, where should i start? should i start talking about my journey realizing that i am mentally unstable, or should i talk about my depression, or here, should i talk about my latest additional friend, flubber?nope, dont wanna open that door. come to think of it, it would be nice to talk about my experience writing my very 1st script, nah... that would take days. well, having to bitch about my times with kak ujie would be fun if there's something to bitch about. she's been there for me, helping and holding my hand with every step i take. only Allah can repay her.

ahha! how bout the part where kush moved out and start working in kl? how bout talking about the movies i've watched and love, apu trilogy, turtles can fly, amelie, a very long engagement, hedwig and the angry inch, margot at the wedding, after the wedding... man...i wish i could write and produce something as good as the movies i watched. ouhh....yes, the kedah trip! the kedah trip was fun, devine experience actually. love every bit and moment of it. i mean how many times do u get to go to the istana kedah and listen to ur friend's gamelan composition and ur sister's lyric being sang in front of all the kings and ministers in malaysia? that was fun.

oups... i've almost forgotten bout my birthday. my 24th birthday. hahahahaha. another year older and none the wiser. well, there. in the end, i have nothing to really talk about actually. nothing really get me going lately. it's boring in an interesting way. but by far the most interesting thing so far is how Allah is teaching me directly about a lot of things, how he actually showed me the consequences of things, the whole idea of sunnatullah suddenly makes sense. alhamdulillah.

to sum up the whole thing, i'll share a very intimate secret that i hold dear to my heart

kagum aku dengan segala kebesaran
hingga aku berjanji dan bersumpah padamu
hidupku matiku hanya untuk mu
bukan aku mereka yang berpaling darimu
ku ucapkan kata-kata yang kau berikan
supaya aku sentiasa rindu padamu
tunduk segala padaku untukmu
kerana aku perlukanmu
bila bersentuh dahiku
semakin tinggi rinduku
semakin besar cintaku
semakin mahu aku padamu
aku malu pada aibku
sesal pada dosaku
mula aku harapkan tinggi darjatku
supaya aku dekat padamu
dan bila bersentuh dahiku
kata-kata dari bibirku
hanya mampu memuji
ketinggianmu keindahanmu
kalau bisa tak mahu aku
mengucapkan salam
supaya aku terus
terus memuji
terus memujuk
terus bercinta


alhamdulillah.
enough said