Saturday, March 25, 2006

importance of having a friend...

Syuhada and Adam gave me a surprise visit today even though they know that deep inside I actually hate surprises (got some very bad experiences with surprises that in the end lead me but to hate any kind of surprises), having said that, I really appreciate what they did… love them for doing things that made me feel good even though in a way I kind of hate things that surprises me. Their surprise visit made me think of the importance of being a friend and what actually makes a friend, a friend.

Alhamdulillah, all my life, I’ve been surrounded by fantastic, fabulous people (though once in a while I came a cross some shitheads, but overall, I’m grateful that Allah loves me and that He always send these wonderful individuals to walk into my life…). Syuhada, Adam, Kush, Kaduk, Ain, Sam, Atah, Abu, Mali, Gem, Zahirah, Khair,Fieza, Juwita, E’en, Deen, Yasseer, Diela, Zafrul, kakak, Abg Ali, Sara, Lina, ya Allah…too many to be list down… I always believe that a friend is a way of Allah sending the message “I Love You, I may not be there physically, but I send this people to you to make you feel loved. And remember, I will always be there even when the people I send to you aren’t there to be with you. You will always be love.” Having this mind setting of believing that each friend is a god-send to me, I try my best to treat them the best that I could…but have I? That’s another question I have to ask my self (and maybe write it down later).

Each friend brings a piece of joy yang Allah taala courierkan along, when they step into our lives, and by right we should be grateful about each and every one of our friends, maybe sometimes, along the way, kita terlupa the reason of kenapa Allah taala kenalkan sahabat itu kepada kita, more often than not, it slip through our head that we aren’t suppose to stab our friends from their back, we aren’t suppose to be fake in front of our friends, and it is our utmost duty to always try to be honest with our friends. Yes, undeniably, that sometimes, we don’t see eyes to eyes with our friends, but that is not a reason for us to tarik muka and gaduh, there’s always time for diplomacy, especially with friends… kiss and make up… friendship should never end… they are god-send to us…

Mungkin sesetengah orang doesn’t believe in everlasting and honest friendship, that’s why perhaps diorang selalu bermuka-muka and tikam dari belakang, (maybe) because they don’t believe that Allah loves them, and that Allah has never been fair to them… maybe some of us has come across these type of people, and please if you’ve just realise that there are some of you friends who are like this, please don’t get angry, please remind your self that these people are emotionally handicap and that it is our duty to help these people to understand the concept and the importance of being a friend.

To my dear dear dearest friends, wherever you are, I would like to apologise if I ever been insensitive (which I believe is most of the time), cant be there to lend my shoulder for you to cry on, and that most of the times, I cant keep myself to always be in touch with you. I apologise for my bad behaviour that you have and had to endure with, my crankiness, my bitchiness, my sometimes-emotionally-immature behaviour et cetera. Hanya Allah yang mampu membalas segala, and I mean it, segala semua memories, jasa you people to me. Insyaallah, I will always pray that Allah sentiasa memberi kamu kesenangan dan kemudahan.

To atah, sam, kush, kaduk, ain,mali, gem, abu, syuhada, adam, khair, fieza, e’en, din, yasseer, diela, juwita, firdaus, firdauz, zahirah, sara, lina, kerwin, Ah Siong, simon, arghh…too many to mention, and you guys that I did not mention your name but you know that you are important to me, thank you…. Thank you…. Thank you…

And before I stop I just want to share a quotation I got from a dear dear dear friend of mine, “idea adalah ilham,ilham adalah hidayah….” (s.abu) hehehehehehe…. See, and you still don’t believe that friends are god-send?!!!

Enough said.

Thursday, March 23, 2006

"Bukan Bunuh Diri"

1.“Bukan Bunuh Diri”…memang bunuh diri, nak pecah kepala..kalau dia tak pecah sendiri, lepas ni aku nak pecahkan kepala sendiri…


2.“Bukan Bunuh Diri”…kadang-kadang memang raca macam bukan bunuh diri, tapi nak bunuh orang lain…


3.“Bukan Bunuh Diri”…takde banyak bezanye ngan cerita lain, dari jabatan nye yang takde rase nak menolong, walhal kewujudan Jabatan Kebudayaan Kesenian dan Warisan motifnye untuk membangunkan teater, dan lain-lain cabang seni…pesanan penaja kepada pihak jabatan, lain kali kalau malas nak buat kerja letak je jawatan tu, bagi kat orang lain yang nak tolong bangunkan seni…


4.“Bukan Bunuh Diri”… seperti biasa orang sentiasa lekehkan sebab cerita melayu…tambah-tambah lagi bila yang nak buat tu student…lagilah orang pandang rendah…


5.“Bukan Bunuh Diri”… nasib baik Uncle Yalal ade nak tolong, kalau tak dah lama mati terkangkang…


6.“Bukan Bunuh Diri”… apa lah nasib lepas ni….


7.“Bukan Bunuh Diri”… dah la, lepas ni malas dah nak buat apa-apa cerita dah, biar lepas ni takde dah project, senang sikit hidup, tak pening kepala, tak sakit hati.


8.“Bukan Bunuh Diri”…last-last bile dah habis project ni sekor-sekor duduk sampai bodoh, lepas tu mesti gatal nak buat project lain lagi even though barru tadi cakap lepas ni tak nak buat teater dah…


9.“Bukan Bunuh Diri”… harap-harap la teater ni boleh jadi hit…kalau nak challenge khalid salleh tu memang dalam mimpi je….tapi insyaallah, cuba la sebaik mungkin!!!!


10.“Bukan Bunuh Diri”… terima kasih bayak-banyak mali…


11.“Bukan Bunuh Diri”…tolonglah datang ramai-ramai, kalau kengkawan sendiri tak support, orang lain lagi laaaaaaaa tak nak support…


12.“Bukan Bunuh Diri”… akan dipentaskan di Taman Budaya Ayer Keroh Melaka, 28-29 April 2006, 8.30 malam…


13.“Bukan Bunuh Diri”…doakan lah kitorang berjaya…. Insyallah…


Enough said.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

notes..notes..notes..

Seriously got a lot of things to say, but my brain is not in a very stable state… few notes of what had happen:

1. Yesterday, 1st march was Kush’s birthday… Happy Birthday dude!!! Me love you, you’re the best roomie ever, the best brother ever, best pal ever, best advisor ever, ur the bestest of the bestest!!!

2. Puteri Gunung Ledang the Musical is fantastically superbly out-of-this-worldly splendid Tiara looked so young and poses such a lovely singing voice, I love her dance, Stephen is such a “Hunk” Tuah, his talents are way bigger than his biceps, and anyone would fall in love with him instantly. Yalal and Sukania are just superbly good, (the two characters that I love most in that play) the lighting, the music, the set…flawless… kudos to Zahim and the gang!!

3.Uncle Yalal’s mother passed away today, we attended her funeral. (Al-fatihah) Met uncle Shuib at the funeral, miss him though, he’s like a father to me, and he took good care of me when I was in Kulim.

4.Lepak with Syuhada and Adam, and Waq…man…it’s been a while since I last lepak with Syuhada, and Adam, how time flies…

5.Have to start memorizing “Bukan Bunuh Diri” …again…. (tu yang buat pening tu)

6.Glad that we decided not to join the Bangsawan…muahahahahahahahahahaha(evil laugh)

7.I miss my mom, halimatun, atiqah, rawaidah and baby syirah… khair, fieza (sorry that aku tak dapat jumpa ko lagi since your grandfather passed away…really I’m soooo sorry) e’en, diela, sara, leman, pak john, kume, nik, deen, zahirah, yasseer, kakak, my atuk, nenek, astot, wana, siti, kak ujie dan sangat ramai lagi….

8.Now I feel like crying, (man…m turning into such a pussy boy…*sigh)

9.Owh yes… I’m am so horny that I might enter the second phase of my unstable mental degree BITCHY MODE… and if I don’t get any action soon, I’ll be subconsciously enter to the 3rd phase SUPER-BITCHY-BICTH MODE

Semoga Allah taala sentiasa mencucuri rahmat ke atas kita semua…

Enough said.