secrets?

I’ve been writing 3 articles (?) when our internet was cut off, Allah knows, how bored we were then. Alhamdulillah, now that it’s back, my beloved PC pulak jahanam… tuhan aja yang tahu betapa tertekan nya aku!!! Hopefully, that after the break, I’ll have my pc back good as new, spick and spat back on the net highway. I had a recent encounter finding out something that was hidden by a very good friend of mine; I didn’t dare to face him and spilt out “hey!! I know your secret!!!” coz I know he’ll definitely freak out if I tell him that I know he’s hiding dirty laundry in he’s closet. We human are likely to have some secret of our own in our sleeves, and we try to keep it there so that other people will not find out about it, but sometimes, we accidentally slip it out…what are we going to do then? And for the spectators, are we ready to see what is there hidden in his sleeve?

We often bitch about our friends not telling us their secrets and their darkest thoughts, we always have this urge of wanting to know more about our friends, because we were brought up in a mentality of the more you know about a person’s history and trauma, and perhaps fetish, we are closer to that person. We push the other party to let us in their “secret garden”, whereas sometimes, we are not ready to see what is actually behind the walls, even though we think we are ready for it. Isn’t it enough for us just to know the person, as in the person him/herself? For me, if we really want to know about the person, just get to know the person, see what you can only see, if the person wants to show us more than we can see, well that’s a different story. For me, trying to “korek” his/her secret is actually invading one’s privacy, and that doesn’t qualify us for the next “bestest best friend award”.

Secrets: how much do we really want to know about our friends?

Ok, I admit, other people secrets are very-very-very tempting, especially when serving it on the silver plate to fill our gossiping appetite, but sometimes, there are certain things that better left to be unknown to us. These secrets actually makes us wanting to stick longer to the person we’re being friends with, we live for the excitement of being surprise, the element of surprise is among the key ingredients of a long lasting friendship. Hell, can you imagine what would it be if there are no more surprises in this world?

Ignorant is bliss? Yes, cause by being ignorant, we’ll be sitting at the edge of our seat, most of the time. We live for the excitement of having an adrenaline rush in our head when someone especially our good friends, come to us one day and start out the conversation with, “aiman, I have something to tell you….” Ya rabbi, I will not trade those moments with anything, be it so even if the things coming out from that person’s mouth is the last thing I would want to hear. And yes, I love to do that to my dear friends, especially khair, fieza and e’en...hehehehehe….and perhaps, if they can turn back time, some of them would want to erase those moments.

Some people have the gift of seeing right through people, but trust me, the more you can see through people, the starving crave of being surprise is even bigger. Because at that point, you are questioning, what is there in him/her that can surprise you, because you know, there is nothing of him/her that you can think of can fulfil that growing appetite of yours.

So remember, the next time you try to dig out secrets from a person, always remember, what would you feel if someone else is doing the same thing to you. And seriously, by the act of digging the secrets itself, it shows how much that friend of yours doesn’t trust you. Don’t blame him/her; look back at yourself, muhasabah diri balik; because if you really are a friend whom he/she can trust, they’ll definitely tell you in the end. And trust me, you’ll keep that secret with you to your grave because you’ll know how appreciate the trust they put on you. So, any of you up to share a little secret with me? Heheheheheh…

Enough said.