21years 6 days old and counting...

alhamdulillah, I'm 21 years 6 days old today, had a decent celebration with my folks, received few phone calls frompeople who cares about me (i assume)...atiqah bought me pants and halimatun bought me a nice shirt..i love my sisters!!!!

God works his way in mysterios ways, dan benar lah yang tuhan itu maha penyayang, dia tak akan meninggalkan hamba-nya terkontang kanting tanpa bantuan, hanya kepada mereka yang betul berusaha untuk mencarik bantuan itu akan berjumpa jua akhirnya. benarlah,Dia maha adil. i read a book written by imam ghazali during the holiday, and i was very impressed with his level or dareness and understanding, knowing how to differentiate the goods and the bads (even if that is in his pointof view, which may not be the definite answer, but still jawapan yang memuaskan, untuk dia dan mereka yang bersetuju dengan dia.), looking at his determination and his daring, aku fikir yang aku takkan boleh pergi ke tahap dia, he not only learn about the subjects, but he also mastered the knowledge to the extend he can identify the flaws of that particular subject. sebab itu dia tulis banyak kitab, baik ilmu fiqh, filosofi (walaupun dia berbeza pendapat dengan Farabi), tasawwuf dan juga sufi.

one of the things yang aku pick up mase cuti is, jangan prejudice, memang susah untuk buang perasaan itu, tapi its better for us not to judge, kita kena ingat,walau dalam buruk sekalipun, ada baiknya,baik in sense of, kalau dia fikir why is it bad? what harm does it cause me? what benifits does it gives me? berat harm ke berat benifits? and at that point kita kana ingat,kalau kita betul sayang diri sendiri, u sould know where and when to stop. satu lagi, kena ingat, the thought of Him giving us the chance to think itu sendiri sudah seribu rahmat dah...its a proof yang Dia memang sayang kat kita. dan kalau betul kita nak berfikir, you'll tend to find the answer, and when u can digest the answer, u know what to do, itwill give u THE determination we oft bitch about ("ntah lah, kekuatan tu takderlah.."i,e).that is what some people call "Hidayah". kita makin hari makin berumur, tak guna kalau umur bertambah,tapi kita masih jahil, everything must suit a purpose. kalau takda purpose,susah tu,kena pikir sendiri baik buruk.

watch a very good play during the holiday, written and directed by khalid saleh, benda sulit, the sound of the title it self dah vulgar gile,but it was agood show, among the things that caught my ears was, "ada itu tidak semestinya zahir pada mata, boleh di ukur jisimnya, boleh ditimbang jirimnya, boleh diterangkan sifatnya; sebab ada perkara yang tidak mampu dijangkau oleh akal,jadi selagi ia boleh diterangkan, ia masih dalam lingkungan jangkauan akal manusia.""bila ada soalan tapi takda jawapan tu yang tension, biarlah kalau jawab sendiri jawab sendiri,kurang-kurang ada jugak jawabnya,kalau yang sendiri tanya,sendiri pun tak boleh nak jawab, haaa, tu yang tension."...

alhamdulillah, kakak bertunang hari ahad (yeay!!!) good for her, and she's lucky to have someone who really loves her, insyallah...and alhamdulillah, tuhan tak pernah tinggalkan aku terkontang kanting, cuma aku yang kadang -kadang buat-buat tak nampak Dia. sanagat bersyukur sebab dapat hidup lagi( kalau yang ni tak 1st on the list tak tau la...) and sangat bersyukur sebab dapat kawan yang pelbagai...yeay!!!

to my dear aizmin, happy belated birthday darling, you are one heck of a friend. tons of hearts, hugs and kisses. (dont forget the love bites!!!) hopefully u had a superb celebration and go through many great things in the future.

alhamdulillah...enough said.